ive been living in the dark like!!!!! my grandfather (maternal) and i were just talking and i found out that he LOVES america like the man loves that country so much, also he’s pro Israel and he loves Israel too.
he also loves gandhi, thatcher, indira gandhi. he was talking about how america is great and that they “saved the world from the communists”
My head hurts, i need to lie down.
every time i feel anxious i recall zadie smith’s words in white teeth about how no one deserves love all the time, that all we deserve is food, water, and shelter. i do not think she was calling for self-abasement but asking us to make our own way for ourselves, to expect from the world as much as we work to cull from it, and to take losses in stride as an inevitable portion of life’s offerings.